otro signo de la libertad

"...que el placer que juntos inventamos sea otro signo de la libertad."

-Julio Cortázar

"...let the pleasure we invent together be one more sign of freedom."

-Julio Cortázar translated by Stephen Kessler

...a morning with Julio and his poetry, my pearls and rose petals between pages...

te gusta presumir

"Hey! 

no vayas presumiendo por ahí 

diciendo que no puedo estar sin ti 

tú qué sabes de mi. 

ya sé que a ti te gusta presumir 

decir a los amigos que sin ti 

ya no puedo vivir. 

no creas que te haces un favor 

cuando hablas a la gente de mi amor 

y te burlas de mi. 

que hay veces que es mejor querer así 

que ser querido y no poder sentir 

lo que siento por ti. 

ya ves 

tú nunca me has querido ya lo ves 

que nunca he sido tuyo ya lo sé 

fue sólo por orgullo ese querer. 

ya ves 

de que te vale ahora presumir 

ahora que no estoy ya junto a ti 

que les dirás de mi ? 

recuerdo que ganabas siempre tú 

que hacías de ese triunfo una virtud 

yo era sombra y tú luz. 

no sé si tú también recordarás 

que siempre que intentaba hacer la paz 

yo era un río en tu mar. 

ahora que ya todo terminó 

que como siempre soy el perdedor 

cuando pienses en mi. 

no creas que te guardo algún rencor 

es siempre más feliz quien más amó 

y ese siempre fui yo..."

 - Julio Iglesias

every little thing

"Though I've tried before to tell her

Of the feelings I have for her in my heart

Every time that I come near her

I just lose my nerve as I've done from the start

Every little thing she does is magic

Everything she does just turns me on

Even though my life before was tragic

Now I know my love for her goes on

Do I have to tell the story

Of a thousand rainy days since we first met?

It's a big enough umbrella

But it's always me that ends up getting wet

Every little thing she does is magic

Everything she does just turns me on

Even though my life before was tragic

Now I know my love for her goes on

I resolved to call her up

A thousand times a day

Ask her if she'll marry me

In some old fashioned way

But my silent fears have gripped me

Long before I reach the phone

Long before my tongue has tripped me

Must I always be alone..."

- STING

bow to the empty seat

"I think your applause died out, hands red, tired, and stained with the hue of once excited blood. I think you thought I was magic. Did my curtain lift when I forgot to take my bow? I think you thought you saw mirrors hiding in the fog and light. Backstage and alone I will slide off the cape, set down the hat, and bow to the empty seat I thought you were filling. I think you thought I was magic."

- T. Knott Gregson

teach me, my dear

"Teach me to sin - 

In love's forbidden ways,
For you can make all passion pure;
The magic lure of your sweet eyes
Each shape of sin makes virtue praise.

Teach me to sin -
Enslave me to your wanton charms,
Crush me in your velvet arms
And make me, make me love you.
Make me fire your blood with new desire,
And make me kiss you - lip and limb,
Till sense reel and pulses swim.
Aye! even if you hate me,
Teach me to sin."

- Alfred Bryan (1871-1958)

un amor que te quiera despeinada

"Mereces un amor que te quiera despeinada, con todo y las razones que te levantan de prisa, con todo y los demonios que no te dejan dormir. Mereces un amor que te haga sentir segura, que pueda comerse al mundo si camina de tu mano, que sienta que tus abrazos van perfectos con su piel. Mereces un amor que quiera bailar contigo, que visite el paraíso cada que mira tus ojos, y que no se aburra nunca de leer tus expresiones. Mereces un amor que te escuche cuando cantas, que te apoye en tus ridículos, que respete que eres libre, que te acompañe en tu vuelo, que no le asuste caer. Mereces un amor que se lleve las mentiras, que te traiga la ilusión, el café y la poesía.” 

- Frida Kahlo

a soul’s mate

"People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. 

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. 

A soul mate's purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master..."

- Elizabeth Gilbert 

sketches on a paper table cover by the light of a candle in New York City

the result of the love

"Walking, I am listening to a deeper way. Suddenly, all my ancestors are behind me. Be still, they say. Watch and listen. You are the result of the love of thousands." - Linda Hogan

be still...

watch...

listen...

words of wisdom...

Thinking of my beloved maternal grandparents Lillian and Guillermo.

They are urging me to continue telling my story, to continue writing HERstory...

mixed media on paper