necessary guts

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"Talent is helpful in writing, but guts are absolutely necessary." -Jessamyn West


one of my favorite quotes

humble & noble

2007 Untitled study for sculpture

Be humble for you are made of earth.
Be noble for you are made of stars.
- SERBIAN PROVERB

openings for happiness

2007 Untitled mixed media study

“When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us.” HELEN KELLER

doors of happiness...there are infinite openings for happiness

music & silence

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I meditate with music and with silence.
I write with music and with silence.
I dance to the music of silence...

My personal hobbies are reading, listening to music, and silence.
Edith Sitwell

(1887 - 1964)

leona de orquídeas

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leona de orquídeas

diosa del olvido

tienes hambre

tienes frio

no creas en el castigo

men like air

2007 Untitled mixed media study

"Out of the ash

I rise with my red hair

And eat men like air”
SYLVIA PLATH

a provocative quote that has stayed with me

empty inside?

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“Outside noisy, inside empty.” - Chinese Proverb

enslaved freedom

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are you free?

truly free?

what ideas keep you hostage?

what concepts hold you back?

what does true freedom look like to you?

who do you enslave?

"The freer that women become, the freer men will be. Because when you enslave someone, you are enslaved." Louise Nevelson

a woman's enviornment

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What does your bedroom look like right now? Is your bed made to tight perfection, anticipating later tonight...or is it passionately rumpled and ready to welcome you back in already ?

"A woman's environment will speak for her life, whether she likes it or not." -Elsie de Wolfe

cantando carnaval

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we need to remember to enjoy life
to live to the fullest
to dance and to sing

Celia Cruz is one of my favorite musicians...I love this song and believe it is a prayer to life, to the carnival that life is...

Todo aquel que piense que la vida es desigual,
tiene que saber que no es asi,
que la vida es una hermosura, hay que vivirla.
Todo aquel que piense que esta solo y que esta mal,
tiene que saber que no es asi,
que en la vida no hay nadie solo, siempre hay alguien.

Ay, no ha que llorar, que la vida es un carnaval,
es mas bello vivir cantando.
Oh, oh, oh, Ay, no hay que llorar,
que la vida es un carnaval
y las penas se van cantando.

Todo aquel que piense que la vida siempre es cruel,
tiene que saber que no es asi,
que tan solo hay momentos malos, y todo pasa.
Todo aquel que piense que esto nunca va a cambiar,
tiene que saber que no es asi,
que al mal tiempo buena cara, y todo pasa.

Ay, no ha que llorar, que la vida es un carnaval,
es mas bello vivir cantando.
Oh, oh, oh, Ay, no hay que llorar,
que la vida es un carnaval
y las penas se van cantando.
Para aquellos que se quejan tanto.
Para aquellos que solo critican.
Para aquellos que usan las armas.
Para aquellos que nos contaminan.
Para aquellos que hacen la guerra.
Para aquellos que viven pecando.
Para aquellos nos maltratan.
Para aquellos que nos contagian.

[lyrics from Celia Cruz’s “La Vida es un Carnaval”]

dragon of change

2007 Untitled mixed media prayer for peace & forgiveness

Change is a dragon.

You can ignore it, which is futile.

You can fight it, in which case you will lose.

Or you can ride it. - CHINESE PROVERB

I am riding the dragon of fire towards peace and forgiveness.

rich by spending

2007 Untitled mixed media study for necklace/sculpture


My mother believes in keeping the flow. She has taught my brothers and I by example, by beautiful stoic example.

"Life begets life.

Energy creates energy.

It is by spending oneself that one becomes rich."

Sarah Bernhardt 1845-1923

she just doesn't like brown

2007 Untitled mixed media study for sculpture

“Look at her, she is wearing brown all over. She must like brown. I didn’t mean to insult the girl. I just don’t like brown.”

- one of my neighbors as I walked down the hallway

I have been wearing a lot of brown lately, with touches of neutrals. Brown is a trustworthy color that combines well with any other color. Brown reminds me of earth and of my connection to her.

However, in India, the color brown is associated with death and mourning, some say because it resembles decaying leaves and flowers. The Nazi uniform was brown...a dirty brown.

The UPS logo and uniform are brown. A man in a brown suit...very 1970’s salesman, eh? Let us not forget brown sugar and milk chocolate. What about brown-bag lunches? I do dislike how a banana is able to flavor my sandwich, but brown bananas do make good bread for tea (which is also a beautiful brown). Delicious raw almonds are brown. My eyes are brown. My hair is brown.

I suppose my blue-eyed, white-haired octogenarian neighbor just doesn’t like brown...

sunshine aspirations

2007 Untitled study
"Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead."
- Louisa May Alcott (1832-1888)

Louisa May, I shall reach them...I am stretching and reaching...

Tefilat Haderech

2005 Untitled hand-dyed silk detail
Before a trip, I pray. Even in the rush to finish packing, I pray. This particular Jewish prayer is going into my new journal as I head out this early morning:

"May it be Your will, Eternal One, My God and God of my ancestors, to lead me, to direct my steps, and to support me in peace. Lead me in life, tranquil and serene, until I arrive at where I am going. Deliver me from every enemy, ambush and hurt that I might encounter on the way and from all afflictions that visit and trouble the world. Bless the work of my hands. Let me receive divine grace and those loving acts of kindness and mercy in Your eyes and in the eyes of all those I encounter. Listen to the voice of my appeal, for you are a God who responds to prayerful supplication. Praised are you, Lord, who responds to prayer."

- The Traveler’s Prayer

Margarita Debayle, Musa de Darío

2007 "Tia Margarita" mixed media
My great-grandmother's sister is the eternal muse of the one and only Rubén Darío. I often dream with Tia Margarita for she has become my muse as well...

A MARGARITA DEBAYLE

Margarita, está linda la mar,
y el viento
lleva esencia sutil de azahar;
yo siento
en el alma una alondra cantar;
tu acento.
Margarita, te voy a contar
un cuento.

Este era un rey que tenía
un palacio de diamantes,
una tienda hecha del día
y un rebaño de elefantes.

Un kiosko de malaquita,
un gran manto de tisú,
y una gentil princesita,
tan bonita,
Margarita,
tan bonita como tú.

Una tarde la princesa
vio una estrella aparecer;
la princesa era traviesa
y la quiso ir a coger.

La quería para hacerla
decorar un prendedor,
con un verso y una perla,
una pluma y una flor.

Las princesas primorosas
se parecen mucho a ti.
Cortan lirios, cortan rosas,
cortan astros. Son así.

Pues se fue la niña bella,
bajo el cielo y sobre el mar,
a cortar la blanca estrella
que la hacía suspirar.

Y siguió camino arriba,
por la luna y más allá;
mas lo malo es que ella iba
sin permiso del papá.

Cuando estuvo ya de vuelta
de los parques del Señor,
se miraba toda envuelta
en un dulce resplandor.

Y el rey dijo: "¿Qué te has hecho?
Te he buscado y no te hallé;
y ¿qué tienes en el pecho,
que encendido se te ve?"

La princesa no mentía,
y así, dijo la verdad:
"Fui a cortar la estrella mía
a la azul inmensidad."

Y el rey clama: "¿No te he dicho
que el azul no hay que tocar?
¡Qué locura! ¡Qué capricho!
El Señor se va a enojar."

Y dice ella: "No hubo intento:
yo me fui no sé por qué;
por las olas y en el viento
fui a la estrella y la corté."

Y el papá dice enojado:
"Un castigo has de tener:
vuelve al cielo, y lo robado
vas ahora a devolver."

La princesa se entristece
por su dulce flor de luz,
cuando entonces aparece
sonriendo el buen Jesús.

Y así dice: "En mis campiñas
esa rosa le ofrecí:
son mis flores de las niñas
que al soñar piensan en mí."

Viste el rey ropas brillantes,
y luego hace desfilar
cuatrocientos elefantes
a la orilla de la mar.

La princesa está bella,
pues ya tiene el prendedor,
en que lucen, con la estrella,
verso, perla, pluma y flor.

Margarita, está linda la mar,
y el viento
lleva esencia sutil de azahar:
tu aliento.

Ya que lejos de mí vas a estar
guarda, niña, un gentil pensamiento
al que un día te quiso contar
un cuento.

Rubén Darío, 1908

Happy Birthday to all of those born on Bastille Day!

xocolatl

yesterday's surprise from France
From golden cups, the Aztec king consumed the dark and bitter liquid believing it to be an aphrodisiac meant for gods...

from a short story written many moons ago

she dressed in pearls

2007 Untitled study
she dressed in pearls from neck to foot

her eyes sparkled when she spoke

she told me to continue on the path

towards beauty

towards greatness

towards peace in the heart

from my dream last night

Antioco y Maruca

2007 "Papa-Coco y Uca" mixed mediaToday is their wedding anniversary. With those sparkling blue eyes and that unforgettable voice Antioco plays his guitar and serenades his beautiful and beloved Maruca...

Bésame, bésame mucho,
Como si fuera esta noche
La última vez.

Bésame, bésame mucho,
Que tengo miedo a perderte
Perderte después.

Quiero tenerte muy cerca,
Mirarme en tus ojos,
Y estar junto a tí.

Piensa que tal vez mañana,
Estaré muy lejos,
Muy lejos de aquí.

Bésame, bésame mucho,
Que tengo miedo a perderte
Perderte después.

[original lyrics by Consuelo Velázquez 1917- 2005]

Papa-Coco and Uca are celebrating in heaven and in our hearts,
with each breath and through every smile...

nicaragua in darkness

2007 Untitled study


Very soon I shall be traveling to Nicaragua where there have been major shortages of light - of electricity. I must remember this proverb and my mosquito repellent...

Better to light a candle than to curse the darkness.

CHINESE PROVERB

I must remember to BE a LIGHT...OM SHANTHI...SHANTHI...SHANTHI

think like a queen

2007 Untitled mixed media prototype for bracelet
He tells me I am his Queen.

I admit, I often believe him.

I think like a queen...and I have my mother to thank.

Oprah agrees...

“Think like a queen. A queen is not afraid to fail. Failure is another steppingstone to greatness.” Oprah Winfrey

hey you, LIVE EARTH

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Madonna performed this song during yesterday's Live Earth concert in London...the message is powerful. I took the liberty of omitting a couple of the song's refrains:

Hey You

Don’t you give up

It’s not so bad

There’s still a chance for us

Hey You

Just be yourself

Don’t be so shy

There’s reasons why it’s hard

Keep it together

You’ll make it all right

A celebration is going on tonight

Poets and prophets would envy what we do

This could be good

hey you

Hey you

Open your heart

It’s not so strange

You’ve got to change

this time

Hey you

Remember this

None of it’s real

including the way you feel


Save your soul, little sister

Save your soul, little brother


Hey you

Save yourself

Don’t rely on anyone else

First, love yourself

Then, you can love someone else

If, you can change someone else

Then, you have saved someone else

But, you must first love yourself

Then, you can love someone else

Hey you

There on the fence

You’ve got a choice

One day it will make sense

Hey you

First, love yourself

Or, if you can’t

Try to love someone else

Keep it together

We ’ll make it all right

A celebration is going on tonight

Poets and prophets will envy what we do

This could be good

hey you

First, love yourself

Then, you can love someone else...

honour yourself, honour the earth, honour our sisters and brothers.
peace.

VII.VII.VII

I woke up at 7:07 today, dreaming of Grand Mother and her golden medallion. Today, the seventh day of the seventh month of the seventh year of the current millennium is believed to be an auspicious day. Historically, the number seven carries deep spiritual significance, representing holiness, perfection and completion. A week has seven days. Many lovers are being married today...Seven Brides for Seven Brothers?

In grade school literature (perhaps in 7th grade) I learned about the Seven Deadly Sins, also known as the Seven Cardinal Sins. These go hand-in-hand with the Seven Virtues:

SUPERBIA-pride versus HUMILITY

INVIDIA-envy versus KINDNESS

IRA-wrath versus FORGIVENESS

ACEDIA-sloth versus DILIGENCE

AVARITIA-greed versus CHARITY

GULA-gluttony versus TEMPERANCE

LUXURIA-lust versus CHASTITY

7 wonders of the world

007

7th heaven

7-11

7 dwarfs of Snow White: (who always gave me the creeps)

Dopey
Sneezy
Sleepy
Doc
Bashful
Happy
Grumpy

7-for-all-mankind (my old jeans which I had before they became trendy)

7-year-itch (film with Marilyn’s infamous white dress)

7 continents

7 chakras

...we shall see what today brings...
Happy Birthday to Christine in Italia!

Frida Kahlo

2007 Untitled mixed media installationcon corona de flores

con collares de colores

ella pinta sus dolores

ella escribe sus amores

"I paint self-portraits because I am so often alone. Because I am the subject I know best."- Frida Kahlo

Happy 100th Birthday Frida!
July 6, 1907 – July 13, 1954

clear skin secrets

2007 Untitled mixed media
Growing up, the women in my family had many "secrets" to a clear complexion.

One advised to drink lots of water and make sure not to perspire unless I washed my face right away.

Another would wash her face with milk - fresh goat's milk I think....while another swore baby's wet diapers held the secret.

I wonder if any of them would agree with Joan Crawford's secret....

I need sex for a clear complexion, but I'd rather do it for love.

Joan Crawford

excerpt from a manuscript in progress

beautiful AMERICA

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I have been humming this song for the last 3 days. If read very slowly, it becomes a prayer.

AMERICA THE BEAUTIFUL

Oh beautiful, for spacious skies,

For amber waves of grain,

For purple mountain majesties

Above the fruited plain!

America! America! God shed His grace on thee,

And crown thy good with brotherhood, from sea to shining sea.

Oh beautiful, for pilgrims' feet

Whose stern, impassioned stress

A thoroughfare for freedom beat

Across the wilderness!

America! America! God mend thine ev'ry flaw;

Confirm thy soul in self control, thy liberty in law!

Oh beautiful, for heroes proved

In liberating strife,

Who more than self their country loved

And mercy more than life!

America! America! May God thy gold refine,

'Til all success be nobleness, and ev'ry gain divine!

Oh beautiful, for patriot dream

That sees beyond the years,

Thine alabaster cities gleam

Undimmed by human tears!

America! America! God shed His grace on thee,

And crown thy good with brotherhood, from sea to shining sea!

- Katharine Lee Bates 1859-1929

I pray for peace around the world. Peace in our hearts. Peace in our thoughts. Peace in our words. Peace in our actions. Peace...

time for self

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"You have to CALENDAR time for yourself even if you have no idea what you're going to do with it." - Susie Bright

this is so important and so true

yoga lifestyle

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Yoga is so much more than stretching, strengthening and standing on one's head. Yoga is a lifestyle, a path towards enlightenment. Om, Shanthi, Shanthi, Shanthi...

“From here, what you see you become.”
- Patanjali

one year ago

2006-2007 "28-29" mixed media on canvas
Private Collection, Washington, D.C.
one year ago
canvas, spirit and paint
began the dance of color

it was his birthday
so this had to be special
something to proudly display

channeling rothko, pollock and picasso
more time was necessary

every day i prayed
every night i meditated

layer after layer
one year later, it manifested
the joyful dance of color

full moon

2007 mixed media

blue moon

rose moon

strawberry moon

full moon tonight


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chakra balance

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chakra balance


promotes


health and happiness

hope

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hope for today.

hope for tomorrow.

hope for peace.

hope for love.

hope for light.

hope for children.

hope for mothers.

hope for fathers.

hope for families.

hope for hope.

healing chant

one of my beloved buddhas wearing a mixed media sculpture
Just as the soft rains fill the streams,
pour into the rivers, and join together in the oceans,
so may the power of every moment of your goodness
flow forth to awaken and heal all beings--
those here now, those gone before, those yet to come.

By the power of every moment of your goodness,
may your heart's wishes be soon fulfilled
as completely shining as the bright full moon,
as magically as by a wish-fulfilling gem.

By the power of every moment of your goodness,
may all dangers be averted and all disease be gone.
May no obstacle come across your way.
May you enjoy fulfillment and long life.

For all in whose heart dwells respect,
who follow the wisdom and compassion, of the Way,
may your life prosper in the four blessings
of old age, beauty, happiness and strength.

- Traditional Buddhist Blessing & Healing Chant

dangerous beauty

She was beautiful and she knew it.


Her skin was alabaster with mother-of-pearl iridescence.


She dressed in layers of flowing, transparent chiffon veils that floated around her long and slender ethereal body.


She pouted thick, sensual, hungry lips resembling only those of Angelina.


Her enormous dark eyes bulged out just enough.


She chased after him.


Had she no pride?


She pursued him, kissing him desperately, almost biting him.


Was she ready to mate?


Do fish have sex...?


notes upon observing a fish tank in a waiting room2007 quick sketch of the dangerous beauty

why am i here?

Why was I born?


Why am I alive today?


Why do I exist?


What is my purpose in this life?


What am I going to do with the rest of my life?

LOOK WITHIN...!

blossoming

2007 UntitledEverything is ready. The time has arrived. He and I have jumped into our dreams and now just need to enjoy the journey, the flying adventure...

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." - Anais Nin

emerald dream

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Her world had become green...alive with mother’s bounty. As she reached for the earth, she discovered emeralds all around; she found hope. Her energies went from serpent to butterfly in cyclic dance and harmony, she was neither one nor the other, but both. She had merged with Mother Nature.

prayer for peace

2007 mixed media
Lord, make me a channel of your peace,

That where there is hatred,I may bring love:

Where there is wrong,I may bring the spirit of forgiveness:

Where there is discord,I may bring harmony:

Where there is error,I may bring truth:

Where there is doubt,I may bring faith:

Where there is despair,I may bring hope:

Where there are shadows,I may bring light:

Where there is sadness,I may bring joy:

Lord, grant I may seek rather

To comfort than to be comforted;

To understand than to be understood;

To love than to be loved;

For it is by forgetting self
That one finds,

It is by forgiving
That one is forgiven,

It is by dying
That one awakens to eternal life.
Amen.

- "Prayer for Peace" by Mother Teresa and The Sisters of Charity
adapted from the Prayer of St. Francis

one of my favorite prayers

summer solstice

2007 ideas coming together
sun king and mother earth

FIRE

wedding of heaven and earth

dance around the fire

be cleansed and purified

sing with joy

remove unwanted things…unwanted obstacles

cleanse and purify with the rays of fire

manifest heart’s desire

sun and earth

male and female

fertility

primal creative forces

god and goddess

abundance

powers of union of god and goddess

celebrate

renew

sun-light

I could not sleep. I meditated. I prayed. I practiced my asanas and pranayama. It was then that I realized that the SUN was calling me, asking me to greet him this morning of mornings, the Summer Solstice...With praying hands I face the sun, feeling love and joy in my heart. I stretch up my hands and let the sun fill me with warmth. I bow before the sun’s radiance and place my face to the ground with humble respect. I lift my face to the sun and then remember, to achieve such heights, I must be as the dust of the earth. I stretch up towards its light trying to reach the greatest heights and again surrender. I stand tall as I remember the true sun is within me...

the dog model

Duchess, my Mom's adorable puppyDON’T MOVE -- she whispered in excitement.

As I flowed from COBRA into DOG, our guest yoga instructor asked me to hold my pose while the rest of the class watched. There I was, on all fours, facing down, with my J.Lo in the air, while she used me as a model:

Her body is an inverted V – she has achieved a straight line from hands to shoulders to hips with straight arms and legs...an ideal Adhomukha Svanasana. This pose stimulates energy levels and rejuvenates the entire body. It is meant to resemble the shape of a dog stretching itself out.

The demonstration seemed to last forever. After class, everyone thanked me for my Downward Facing Dog. I suspect Duchess would be proud...

no good in a bed

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"I once had a rose named after me and I was very flattered. But I was not pleased to read the description in the catalogue: no good in a bed, but fine up against a wall."
- Eleanor Roosevelt

this quote cracks me up...I am still laughing as I type...

our bodies

2007 Untitled self-portrait of mixed media
When you look in the mirror who do you see?

When you find a new little wrinkle what do you blame?

A gray hair? Is it really time to despair?

An extra pound or two? Is that important to you?

Our bodies are not eternal, our souls are.

Om Shanthi, Shanthi, Shanthi...

hero - king - father

He is my HERO.

He is my KING.

He is my FATHER.

honouring all fathers on this day

paris in june

...and so they decided that they would visit Paris every June for the rest of their lives. Paris was where they first met and became friends. Paris was where they flirted with child-like innocence and play. Paris had witnessed their first embrace and their very first French-kiss. Paris had baptized them with showers of passion and joy... (excerpt from a short story in progress)

Paris in June....I can visit Paris at any moment...

First, I put on my favorite French music and begin to sing along...and dance like Isadora Duncan...

Des yeux qui font baisser les miens
Un rire qui se perd sur sa bouche
Voilà le portrait sans retouche
De l'homme auquel j'appartiens

Quand il me prend dans ses bras
Il me parle tout bas
Je vois la vie en rose
Il me dit des mots d'amour
Des mots de tous les jours
Et ça me fait quelque chose

While singing and dancing barefoot, I open a bottle of French red wine or champagne or Perrier depending on my mood and budget...include a fresh baguette with brie, oui, oui ...perhaps read some Anaïs Nin...nous sommes à Paris...

Although not necessary, it is fun to invite a friend to Paris...even better, take your lover...my lover also happens to be my husband who happens to be part French.

family of light

2007 Untitled mixed media study for sculpture
There was darkness all around her. She seemed to be the only light and this terrified her to tears. Where was her Spiritual Family? In fear, she almost gave in. Out of shame, she almost abandoned her flame. Then she remembered. She remembered she was once a star born from galaxies before time. Through breathing and praying, through stretching and meditating she remembered. She was light and light is what this planet earth needed most of all. In remembering, she began finding her family of light, one by one, light by light.